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Get ready for me to get real. If you only like happy little Christian stuff, then please close your browsers, but if you want to see what it’s like to process hardship in a real way then please continue…..
It would be an understatement to say that the past two months were hard. Majority of my days I want to crawl into a hole and cry Elijah style and eat a giant chocolate cake all by myself. NO, I am not going to share…get your own cake and get your own cave. But thankfully there aren’t many caves in San Diego, but the giant chocolate cake at Costco has been tempting.
I’m gonna be real and honest I’ve had a few pity parties, not sure why no one has come to join the party. I have asked myself and those close to me a million of questions only to come out of it even more confused. I re-looked at everything I have done the past year to see where I have screwed up or didn’t amount. Then I sense things in the spirit but look in the natural and think “MAN I’M REALLY NOT PROPHETIC”.
God even sent an angel to comfort me a couple of weeks ago, and it gave me some hope that God was with me and going to help me with two very hard situations in my life. I got prophetic words that were aimed to get my head up, but things were so heavy that it was still really hard for me to lift it.
A few days ago I was working out, cause since moving here I’ve gained like 25 pounds and that’s without eating the Costco cake. I was listening to a random set of songs and then Sara Bareilles song, Brave came on. I’ve heard it a million times, and I even got my 2015 planner’s cover with the song lyrics “I Wanna See You Be Brave” Hmmm, maybe I am prophetic, cause my thought process was….”I need to be brave in 2015.”
Anyways, It’s like all of sudden it’s God singing the song to me and I go into a vision. I saw myself on a large playing field dressed in P.E clothes and I was totally eating dirt. I had been tackled down by big bully men who just left me there on the ground all mangled up. I wasn’t moving and all of sudden I lifted my head a bit and there He was on the side-lines as low as me coaching me, “GET UP! I WANNA SEE YOU BRAVE!!!”
I made straight eye contact with Him and it was like a burst of strength entered my heart. He wasn’t calling a time out or pulling me out of the game. He was challenging me, “Show me how big your brave is…” It’s like I knew I could still win the game. It wasn’t over and God was cheering me on.
It’s ok to be scared, and it’s ok if things hurt. What is not ok is letting fear and hurt keep you immobilized.
The thing about being brave is it doesn’t come with the absence of fear and hurt. Bravery is the ability to look fear and hurt in the face and say move aside, you are in the way.
See, It’s never over with God. He will take any situation and use it for His good (Romans 8:28). Life and the enemy can sometimes hit hard, but as the wise Rocky Balboa stated, “You, me or nobody is going to hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard you hit, it is about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward, how much can you take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done!”
God is still speaking over His church and maybe personally to you today with Joshua 1:9,
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.
So, if you have felt like me these past couple months, I want you to know you are NOT alone. God is with you and will bring comfort and wisdom in every situation. Just remember to not let hurt and fear keep you down. You have a great calling on your life and a wonderful, bright future ahead.
You are called to VICTORIOUS and a WINNER. You are the head and not the tail. Don’t let past failures or what is happening to you now stop you. With all that said, show me how big your brave is…
And remember it’s ok to process…find people you can be real and safe with. The goal is to get it out and not keep it. Think of David in the Psalms. He would vent his situation to God, but then change his thinking and praise God that He was going to see him through.